September 19, 2025

Wow, it's been a while since I've updated this journal, huh? Life's had its ups and downs since January, but overall, things have been getting better and better.

The first thing is that I've graduated college! Well, sort of. I have one course left (curse you, programming languages!), but aside from that I'm mostly done! I'm also taking psychology courses on the side as well - I may not be a big fan of computer science, but I'm interested in psychology and I'm hopeful that if I can get a degree in that instead, I could do something more aligned with my interests (like being a therapist, or a neuropsychologist, or a researcher).

Still no luck on the job front - unfortunately, it's difficult to get a job if you're a computer science major at the moment - but I'm still applying and holding out hope.

On the projects front, I've been writing more poetry recently! Although not all of the poetry I write is good, I've been steadily improving over time, and I'm proud of the work that I've put into my writing. I've also been trying to slowly get back into RPGMaker stuff, and I've even been attempting to make my own music!

Also, I started testosterone! Forgot to mention that before - I started back in August. Although my voice hasn't fully dropped yet, I've definitely been noticing the effects (or at least, I've been sweating a lot more).

That's about all I have to say - stay tuned for more regular updates to this website!

January 26, 2025

This is my first ever journal post! There's been a few things that have been new with me, and I'll try to talk about as many as them as I can in this brief entry.

For starters, school starts tomorrow! It will be my final semester of studying computer science. It's been a rough few years - I've had many ups and downs throughout my time at school, and there have been hundreds of times where I've wanted to just give up and quit, but in a few months, it'll all be over. I'm not the biggest fan of my major, truthfully, but I'm not the biggest fan of school in general, so I'm glad it'll all be over soon.

I've also interviewed for a job recently! I won't disclose the company, but it's a decent sized company located on the opposite side of the country from where I live. I'd have to upturn my entire life and move across the country, but I'm hoping I'll get the job anyways. The idea of moving out is both completely terrifying and extremely exciting to me. Even though it's a software engineering job, and I'm ambivalent about my major, the potential pay and my potential move is enough to keep me motivated to do my best to get the job.

On the projects front, I've been working on "chain game" - basically someone started an RPGMaker project, and it's my job to continue the project as best as I can, without being able to communicate with anyone who came before or after me. I've been struggling, truthfully, because my ADHD is kicking my ass despite the fact that I have some exciting ideas, but I'm determind to put in a good effort anyways. In terms of writing, I'm still procrastinating my various fanfics, but I wrote a poem earlier today, and I'm determined to practice my poetry some more - as well as maybe starting to read more poetry, so I gain an understanding of what I like and dislike in a poem.

On a more personal note - I recently learned that my aunt is transgender! This is huge news, because it means that I have another relative who is trans and understands what it's like to be trans. I'm hoping that we can talk soon about our experiences & grow closer to each other, because having that type of support would be super meaningful to me.

I think that's enough updates for this entry! I'll keep posting regular journal entries, because I want to keep my Neocities up-to-date. Thanks for reading!