severe dissociative symptoms

i’m drifting off into outer space,
far, far away from the hell of this earth,
past mars and his bloody battles of anguish,
past jupiter and his stormy days and nights,
past saturn and his rings, promises unraveled by time,
past uranus and the bright blue skies of better days,
past neptune and the ocean i’m drowning in,
flying lazily into the twinkling stars.

the earth cannot touch me from here.
gaia and her violence, her storms, her skies, her ocean,
time itself seems to dissipate at my fingertips.
there is nothing. i am nothing.
i float aimlessly
with nothing
to anchor me
to this world.