a pattern of alternating between extremes of idealization and devaluation

you care about me. you want me.
these simple facts i understand.
you think i’m cute. you love me.
these simple facts guide my hand.

you’re indifferent. you don’t want me.
simple facts, yet shaky land.
i’m not enough. you despise me.
these horrible feelings start to expand.

you’re god. you’re dust to me.
nothing’s going as i planned.
you hurt me. you hurt me.
don’t leave, i beg, as i sink in quicksand.